I’m officially 20 and laid off. What I thought was going to be a bad day actually turned into a horrible day. I woke up in a irritable mood, there was no water for my tea, I went to the vending machine and didn’t get what I wanted, people were driving slow. I couldn’t have imagined I was also going to be laid off before lunch time.

“Your department has to make severe cuts…” “We didn’t make enough in revenue…” “It’s not a performance issue…” “We’re sorry…” None of those things make me feel any better.

It was me, John and Henry. Henry and I fresh off our 90 day probation. John fresh into his 90 day plan. How come we were the ones let go? Not just let go, but our “positions have been eliminated”. Excuse me?

Can you say awful timing? My car is in the shop. It’s going to cost $4000 to move. I’m planning a wedding. The last thing I need is to not have income. I get a month’s severance package and the check I anticipated for this Thursday. By the time we got back to our desks to get our stuff, all of our e-mails were deactivated. When I got to my grandparents to salvage my social media accounts, most of them had their passwords changed. I’M THE ONE WHO SLAVED OVER THOSE ACCOUNTS, AND NOW I HAVE NO ACCESS TO THEM?! THEY WEREN’T BRANDED; THEY WERE MINE!

I wish this post could be more like J$ when he got fired. But unlike him, I’m thousands of dollars in debt with no emergency fund.

My family is being super supportive, but honestly, it’s not doing much. I’m frustrated, hurt, embarrassed. How do you tell someone their next evaluation is in March when they won’t make it through the following week? How do you have someone plan out a marketing strategy for an entire year when they won’t make through week 2? How can you psyche someone out for going to San Francisco when you’re cutting them loose? Oh, and you’re still hiring people? Oh, someone new is coming in tomorrow? Are you kidding me?!

The fact of the matter is this was horrible timing and just, I don’t know, horrible. I’m so upset. The only thing I can do is go back to the drawing board I was in this time last year, pimping my social media services online.

Enhanced by Zemanta